I am on a plane to Los Angeles to interview contractors to build the drivers club.  It is a  bittersweet trip, Cory, Wyatt and I have moved into our FIRST family home today, and I will not be there to spend our first night.  It is beautiful and amazing yet a part of me mourns leaving our loft. So much of our life happened in that building.

I am on a plane to Los Angeles to interview contractors to build the drivers club.  http://www.mydriversclub.com It is a bittersweet trip, Cory, Wyatt and I moved into our FIRST family home today and I will not be there to spend our first night.

Our house is beautiful, amazing and everything that I want or dream of in a home, yet at the same time a part of me mourns leaving our loft…so much of our life happened in that building.  We moved in only a couple of days before getting married 14 years ago  (yes Cory and I have a tendency to grow roots, we are NOT movers, so you know we do not take moving lightly).

There are so many highlights of buying that building struggling to renovate it out of pocket, finally getting our loft completed, bringing home Porsche (our Doberman Pinscher), MANY nights in the monster jacuzzi with a bottle of red wine, friends and family over (but not for too long, because the original space was too small), and of course the greatest change in our lives and the real  impetus to move welcoming Wyatt home to us.  I will never forget that first night with our little man, simply the best day of our lives to date, and how is presence changed the energy of the loft into a home.  Our loft was recently described by a friend of ours to a curious fiend of hers “ well 80% of it is set up for kids including indoor swing and ladder”.  At the new place he will get a swing and ladder and much more outside, how novel  ; ).  Completing my book, the amazing revolving door of family and company that came from all over God’s green earth to meet and welcome Wyatt to our family.  Really one of the most beautiful and blessed times of our lives, and I know I can speak for Cory on that point, we have spoken about it often.

Of course there was sadness, worry and loss in the loft as well, our beloved Porsche passing away the very night of Wyatt’s welcoming ceremony.  Financial struggles, the phone call about “the hang man”  if you don’t know that story you really must read my book http://www.reframeyourblame.com family friction, news of illness, passing of grandparents.  The entire complexity and beauty of life itself.  That is what was, or perhaps more accurately put that is “where was”.

Today is about what is, where is, and what is to be.

A fresh start, a new beginning, a new environment to nurture ourselves, our families and friends, a place to consciously nurture our lives, our dreams and our future.

So my loves Cory and Wyatt, even though I am not physically there know that my heart is in our new home, my thoughts are with you both, about us and our future.  We will  have the best summer of our lives thus far at HOME with family and friends.

I miss you both…